18 December 2019


Sharing about mental health has always been something I have done on my blog; whether it's talking about coping strategies, difficult moments, unusual medical appointments (!) or amazing 'wins', there isn't anything that I shy away from discussing with you guys because I believe it is super important. Starting conversations about mental health is critical to helping it be viewed more clearly, through real eyes and real situations and I certainly intend to continue talking openly here about it as I always have done. (To see all my posts on mental health click here - keep scrolling down to find other posts!).

That said, I want to share something which, if I'm honest, I don't entirely know how to articulate, because it is a new one for me, but I will try to be clear and open in the hope that we can start a bit of a conversation or share advice in the comments or over on my Instagram, where things usually get discussed in DM's for anonymity, which is totally fine of course because I just want to support and help people where I can.

If you have been with me on From Lucy, with Love for a while you will know that my medication of choice has been Fluoxetine (a member of the Prozac family). I started taking it about seven or so years ago after hitting a very critical, low point in my mental health. Having tried other medications in the past, and feeling ill through side effects, I wasn't in a rush to go on to anything again and have always tried to manage things using other means (exercise, diet, meditation etc), but I knew I needed to reach out for extra help, and so Fluoxetine was offered to me. It kicked in fast and 'lifted the fog' enough to help me function in the world and actually smile again. I have been on the lowest dose ever since (only having two periods of time on an increased amount to get me through lower points).

This year, however, I made the decision to try coming off the medication. It was not an easy choice because I know how things get: suicidal thoughts, low moods, inability to function properly, confusion etc, but I wanted to just see how I could be without it. I am a huge believer in positive thinking and really didn't want to live in a 'what if' mindset, unless it was a positive 'what if it's different this time' one anyway! In all honesty, coming off medication was a terrifying concept; you know you are playing a waiting game because you don't know (and can't anticipate) how long the drugs will take to leave your system, and you are just waiting to see how you feel each morning. It's hard, but just because it is hard, it doesn't mean you shouldn't try it, so try it I did.

I didn't really tell anyone because I didn't want a fuss, not that many people knew I was even on it, and most don't 'see' my mental health issues anyway (because if you aren't rocking backward and forward in a corner you are okay right?!). I slowly started coming off it by alternating days and finally finishing altogether and, for a long time, I didn't feel any different at all so I started to think 'woo-hoo, I am cured baby!'. Sadly that isn't the case, but let's not feel bad about that!

The latest news is that I find myself stood at a crossroads again (hello old friend). Where, in years gone by, I would have jumped right back to medication when faced with the speeding cars and frustrated motorists, I now find myself allowing their wing mirrors to clip me and force me to have to steady myself and refocus again. Life is kind of feeling a bit of a blur around me again right now, but I have been mindful to continue with the things I used to find hard, because they were battles I had won on medication and I know I can do them, so I just do them.

What is different off the meds? I am back to full blown sensitive, emotional Lucy, which is pretty great in many respects because it is the real me, I just need to manage the things that come with that, the things that the medication covered up for me. I really didn't realise quite how much was being numbed if I am honest, but I now find myself back in 'sensitive town' and I am determined to managed that. Having spent the last few years on really deep self development I do feel more equipped to cope, but I think it is more about finding a new normal again.

My new normal or very old normal, pre-meds normal, finds it hard to cope with life. I struggle knowing that I can't help every single suffering animal in the world, that I can't run to the side of an elderly person in need every minute of the day, or be company for someone who is suffering and lonely. These things may sound over dramatic to you, but these are truly things that contribute to my every day mood. Off medication my mind is a whirl wind of thoughts and the medications slowed that down and allowed me to be a lot more rational. Being rational is the key to my happiness here I think. 

A while ago, someone said to me 'what would you tell someone else thinking/feeling the same as you are right now'; I thought about that and wrote something down recently, so here it is:

Be gentle with your emotions; just because you feel things deeply, it doesn't mean you are broken, it doesn't mean you need fixing. Sensitivity may be a hindrance sometimes, but it is also beautiful. Don't feel guilty for switching over those difficult charity adverts that show animals suffering, you can't help every single living thing in the world! The main thing is that you do your best every single day. You have rescued animals and given them good, loving homes, and there have been countless times you have picked up caterpillars or some other creature and moved them out of potential death by foot (and then worried about whether you had put them back where they had just travelled from!). You help people when you can, in the supermarkets or by talking to someone who looks alone and sharing a smile. You must learn to put down the heavy emotions, because continuing to carry all of them will lead to something breaking. Don't prevent your own happiness and growth through worry about situations you cannot control. You always try to do your best and that is enough.

I found that exercise useful because it enables you to step back and see a wider view of things outside your own head space, give it a try.

The New Year will be here soon and I will see how I am feeling day by day, knowing that I can always go back to medication if I need to, but I am really working hard to not have to, and it is really bloody hard guys. Wish me luck!

If you are in a similar position or want to share thoughts, please leave a comment or pop over to Instagram (I am @fromlucywithloveblog over there) and DM me for a little chat.

As always, please, please reach out to friends, family or professionals if you need support, don't try and be brave, just talk, I promise you with all my heart it will be okay. 

Lastly, don't ever just stop taking medication without speaking to the doctors as stopping without a plan can be dangerous to your health (mental and physical) so go and talk about it before taking action.


24 November 2019


^^ I'm so grateful to have these gorgeous trees right outside the front door ^^

After a long time without writing here I am (finally) back. I wanted to come back to the blog sooner after we moved, but we had several problems with the internet, resulting in us having to rely on a 4G box thingy, which liked to turn itself off all the time, so I decided to wait until the issues were resolved, and they now are! Hooray for 'BT man Sam' who visited twice this past week!

I feel like the last month has been a whirlwind of packing, unpacking, sorting and organising (and looking for things I had 'put somewhere safe', like my pens and washi tapes for example! But finally we are 'there' and this house feels so bloody good to live in. It is quiet and peaceful all the time, with no busy road noise right outside the window. Gizmo came home a week ago and instantly slotted in to life in a new house; she seemed so much more relaxed and chilled out as soon as she got here, so all in all we are a happy bunch!

Right then, let's jump into this weeks list!

:: Having missed it when it was on TV, due to it being on a tad early for me, at 5pm, I have been catching up with Junior Bake Off and, oh my goodness, what a wonderful programme it is! I absolutely love it and cry each time it is on out of sheer happiness at how sweet all the contestants are! Whenever one of them gets upset over something that hasn't gone to plan, and one of the others runs over to hug them and give them words of encouragement, I get so emotional; they have so much empathy towards one another and it really is refreshing. I highly recommend you watch it if you need a pick me up, but warn you that you will want to immediately bake everything you see!

:: Today, finally experiencing a gap in the torrential rainfall, we drove the short journey over to Marazion beach for a walk. It has been so long since we have been there and, as I breathed in the fresh sea air, I vowed to not leave it so long, after all, being just five minutes away there really is no excuse. I picked up two thin pieces of slate from the beach, which I intend to decorate with botanical illustrations, using white paint and a fine brush and then a varnish to seal in the artwork. Keep an eye on my Leaf Lane Studio Instagram for those as I may sell them if they turn out well!

:: I have made a few pieces of work this week for clients who have ordered from my website, and it was nice to spend my first week in the new studio/office space just painting and relaxing into it again.  I created one of my 'initial paintings' for a lovely lady and a special gift for a friend too, which I can't tell you about until it is in her hands because it is a surprise; I just hope she likes it! I have been feeling so 'out the loop' lately, which I may write about on here soon as it has been a difficult thing to understand, so having time to sit and paint allowed me to do some inner reflection and try and work out what is going on with me! Maybe more on that later this month or next.

:: We let Gizmo out in the garden a couple of times today for a sniff about. I think it you are 'meant' to keep cats in two to six weeks after moving, but she was so relaxed and at home that we figured that some supervised outdoor time would be okay. She has been indoors for over twelve weeks, since she went missing at the old place, so her little face lit up when she went outside again and she went right back to her old habits of sniffing the plants and trotting about. I am so nervous about her being out again, but I know how happy she is outdoors so would never take that away permanently from her. Keeping her inside, after almost coming close to being hit by cars on the main road at the last house, wasn't a decision we made lightly, but it was totally the right thing to do, so I am happy we persisted with it. She came around in the end, but it is times like that where you wish you could communicate with your pet!

:: I did a huge batch cooking session recently and made three types of dishes to be frozen, which has been so much easier after a busy day working. I made a meatball and bacon dish and a pasta sauce, filled with veggies, but my favourite so far is the chickpea and sweet potato curry, it was super yummy and a great Friday night treat with some naan bread we bought from Morrisons! I really enjoy cooking in this new kitchen, it is set out so much better and feels great to be in, so I am far more inclined to cook properly!

:: I am noticing now that the little Cornish villages are putting up their lights and decorations ready for December and it is making me feel a little more festive too! I have struggled with that festive feeling this year so far; I am usually feeling all the magic by now and enter December in a full on Christmas mood! I decided to make some Christmas cards too and have been chopping the card this afternoon ready to start painting the various designs. I am thinking that doing the cards will help get me in a more festive frame of mind! What do you do to help ignite your Christmas spirit?

:: On the subject of Christmas, Joe made some mince pies yesterday! I'm sure he won't mind me telling you that cooking isn't his 'thing', it really doesn't interest him in the slightest, but one Christmas, about two years ago, he wanted to make mince pies and set about looking for recipes. Recipe found he set to work; about three years later he had made a batch of mince pies. I would like to add that, this years 'test batch' as they are known, only took an hour! All that said, and jokes aside, I have to say that they are really delicious, they really are, and I would greatly encourage further cooking experience (but I don't think it will happen!).

I will leave it there for now but hope to be back to my usual schedule of two posts a week now, so please do come back and visit soon! Have a wonderful week!


4 November 2019


I am sitting down to write this after a busy old day! I launched my new, mini-collection on Leaf Lane Studio this evening; it's called 'Floral Brights' and consists of a card, notepad and print, but there will be more to come for sure. I am super happy with it and can't wait to see some of you using the products in your homes too! I have so many ideas for Leaf Lane Studio and have to keep jotting things down because I know that I will get to every single one!

Let's get stuck into this weeks gratitude list!

:: This week was my last week at the hotel and, as it was so quiet, I had some bonus days off to paint! I was super grateful to stay snuggled in my office, with a coffee and Netflix and just lose hours painting (time always flies by when I am doing anything creative). I am happy with the progress of my pieces so far, as you can see from the picture, I have some work still to do, but you can see them coming together nicely! One is off to a new home for a Christmas gift and the other (which ever one isn't chosen by my beautiful client) will be available to buy! You will be able to tell me a quote, or whatever you would like really, and I will hand letter it in the centre for you! Make sure you are following my Leaf Lane Studio Instagram account for when that goes up for sale!

:: During the early hours of Saturday morning Cornwall was hit by the most severe wind and rain we have had for a long time. We had 80mph gusts and were woken by lashing rain and said gusts at 3am. As much as it is a tad scary to wonder what will be happening outside in weather like that, I was grateful to be cosy in bed, with Gizmo all cuddled up and safe too. There is something kind of nice about listening to storms when you are wrapped up in bed and hankfully there wasn't too much damage in our area, but driving to work the next day was interesting!

:: I wanted to say a huge thank you to everyone who downloaded my free illustrations this week! They are still available to download, just click here, and you can make your phone or computer (or whatever device you like) all cosy for winter with my artwork or calendar! If you haven't seen what I am giving away, check out the pictures below! You will receive an email with the artwork ready to use, but please make sure you check your junk email if you aren't seeing the freebie, some providers file things straight in the junk box (little rascals!). I hope you love it!

:: I almost dread saying this, but I am loving that the Heart Radio Xmas channel has appeared on the radio again! I didn't think I would be into Christmas songs as much during the first week of November, but it turns out I am! 

:: I listened to a really lovely Lori Harder podcast episode this week (you know I love her stuff!) and she was talking about fear and how we need it in order to grow. She told this cute little story, which I will retell in my own way because I never remember things properly, it was about a glass bottle who saw bigger glass bottles that could hold more water than he could, and how he desperately wanted to become a bigger, more capable vessel. One day he stood in front of the ocean, dreaming about becoming a bottle that could hold vast amounts of fresh sea water; telling his friends about this they took him to a place to make his dream come true. As he stood in front of a big fire, where he saw other glass getting melted and reformed, he began to feel a rising panic; he didn't know what to expect, what was going to happen to him if he jumped in there? Taking a deep breath, and a leap of faith, he went inside... he finally emerged a bigger, even more capable version of himself, with more room to hold water, just like he had wanted, but he just had to go through a little fear in order to emerge as the bottle he wanted to be. How much do you love that story? It really touched me to my core, especially as I am currently feeling a lot of fear around money (seeing as I am no longer at the hotel for a bit) and know that I need to push through the unknown to make my business thrive. It really made me consider just how much we have to gain from being out of our comfort zones! Find the episode, Fear is Your Power, right here!

:: This coming week will be all about the house move and I need to start packing my studio up as much as I can. Gizmo will be going back into the cattery again, which I feel really guilty for, but I am grateful that she will be in there, because I cannot stand the thought of her running out an open door as we are moving or being let out of a room we are keeping her in by mistake. I am so looking forward to her being able to be outside again. The new house is so much safer for her and I am confident she will be so much happier. She has been inside since late August and has taken to sniffing the fresh air coming in at a vent down by the sofa in the lounge (this doesn't help my cat mum guilt!). Almost there now Gizmo!

That is it for this week; stick with me as we are move and things may be a tad all over the shop. I really will feel relieved to get back to being settled and in a proper routine again; I don't feel like anything normal has been happening for months now! See you soon!


31 October 2019


Happy Halloween! Today I have a cool little freebie for you guys!

I have created some cute, seasonal artwork for you to jazz up your devices, including this ^^ 'Stay Cosy' illustration and a November calendar too! Both illustrations come in landscape and portrait orientations so you can choose what you use them for!

All you need to do to grab yours is CLICK HERE and sign up to my Leaf Lane Studio Love Notes and you will get an email come right on back with your free downloads on! Woo-hoo! (Check your junk mail if you are not seeing your downloads).

Please do share a screenshot on Instagram and tag in @leaflanestudio and/or @fromlucywithloveblog too and I will share your image on my feed so we can spread the love of the freebies!

Enjoy your seasonal goodies and I will see you soon for another post!

PS: Keep your eyes peeled as I will be releasing my new 'Floral Brights' mini-collection really, really soon!


27 October 2019


^^ A slightly blurry, but equally pretty, double rainbow I captured this week! ^^

Welcome back to my weekly gratitude post! It's been a couple of weeks since I have popped one of these up for you guys; what with one thing and another happening, including being super poorly this week, it has been a bit hard to focus my brain box into writing anything at all, but I'll give it a go!

My new Studio Vlog (number 12!) has just gone live on my YouTube channel, and I have linked it below for you, I hope you enjoy it, please do subscribe if you haven't already, I am really (really) trying to to grow my channel (it is soooo hard!), so if you like what I am all about then please do come on over and hit the 'subscribe' button, I would really appreciate it. I also have a little update in the vlog, nothing super thrilling, but I just like to keep you guys in the loop! You can also see me working on my new Floral Brights collection too.

 ^^ Make sure you are following my Leaf Lane Studio Insta to see when my new collection comes out! ^^

Let's dive into todays list shall we?

:: This week I finally sat down and edited our Devon break pictures and put the footage together into a little video, have you seen it yet? Check out this blog post if you want to see what we got up to whilst we were away. The few days were super chilled, even though we did a lot, and went to a fair few places, we really had no set agenda and just went with what we felt like that morning. It was a well overdue break as we hadn't been anywhere since moving to Cornwall. Looking back on the footage and the pictures made me super grateful to have just said 'yes' to going and had the change of scene, even though it came at a really awkward time. I love Devon so much and definitely need to see more of it.

:: I don't know if you guys will know what I am talking about, but this week, fueled by my strange virus thing that showed up, I looked at my skin and just thought 'Sh*t, you are looking so dull'. I immediately jumped onto my 'church' (Boots) and had a scroll through their things (big mistake as always!). On Friday I received a little order of Vitamin C serum, a repeat purchase of my all time favourite oil cleanser and a couple of other things (next weeks Studio Vlog has a mini-haul for anyone who hasn't dozed off yet!). I have been making the effort to massage my oils and products into my skin and I think it already looks brighter for it (anyone who witnessed last nights Instagram story may have seen that I had a shiny old moon-face!).

:: I am loving all the autumn-ness (that's a word right?) right now. Stepping outside and smelling wood smoke, from log burners and open fires fills me with nostalgia and watching all the changes in nature taking place reminds me that we are very much on our way to fireworks and Christmas trees (although I am still in denial about the 'C' word due to what I tell you guys in the vlog this week... too many other things happening to worry or even think about Christmas!). I do adore Autumn though and hope that I can get out and snap a few more pictures of it before all the leaves drop.

:: Because the universe forced me to do absolutely nothing from late Tuesday onwards this week I actually found time to read (gasp!). I have had the Jen Sincero book 'You are a badass: How to stop doubting your greatness and start living an awesome life' for ages, but have never had a clear stretch of time to read it, but this week seemed like a great opportunity, so I got stuck in and, I have to say, I love this book! I am loving the no-nonsense approach to her writing, which is forcing me to rethink some of my ways and laugh out loud to the bits where I recognise myself fully (body shaming and imposter syndrome for example!). I am trying to make the effort to get into bed a little bit earlier now so I can continue to read this awesome book; the chapters are short, which means I am just about capable of staying awake for them!

:: Has anyone noticed how epic the sunsets have been recently? There is a timelapse of a particularly amazing one right at the end of the vlog (below) but they have just seemed so much more dramatic recently and the clouds have been getting seconds of gold, dusted underneath them, right before the sun finally slips below the horizon. Stunning.

:: Before this weeks lurgy took hold I managed to squeeze in a couple of dedicated 'painting days'; I have a commission that I really want to get finished before all hell breaks loose again (see vlog for details!). Actually guys, if you want to order any Christmas gifts, such as a cute 'initial' piece (pictured below) then pop over to my website and order yours asap! Click here to have a mooch on Leaf Lane Studio. The initials make cool additions to offices, gallery walls at home or kids bedrooms and, as you will read on my website, you can have any colour you want, but as standard they come in a deep blue/grey, but just email me if you want another colour and I will invoice you for the piece! I usually have a few of these to do for Christmas gifts so make sure you beat the rush as I will make them to order and it is first come, first served! Go, go, go!

I think I will leave it there for this week, but be sure to check back on Wednesday for another post, plus I have a freebie coming this week, which is guaranteed to jazz up your computer/device! Stay tuned! Have a great week guys!


25 October 2019


Welcome to my little Devon trip photo-diary! There are many photos here, plus a vlog right at the very bottom if you want to see more of this beautiful place!

We stayed at a little place called 'Start Bay Lookout', right on the cliff edge, by the village of Hallsands, which was sadly taken by the sea in the early 1900's. Hallsands was said to have been founded in the 1600's, but it wasn't until the late 1800's that it had built up into a thriving fishing village, with over 35 houses, a pub and a family-run fishing industry. The lookout point, right by the apartment that we stayed in, has a full timeline of events, telling the story of the village through to its destruction in the 1900's. When you stand on the lookout point, you get to witness the full scale of what occurred and are swiftly reminded at the power of the ocean. Head to my vlog below to see the view from the lookout.

I hope you enjoy these pictures, let me know in the comments if you have visited any of these places!

^^ Start Bay Lookout is a cute, seaside- themed apartment, full of sweet little trinkets ^^

^^ The coast path just outside the apartment, led down to this shingle beach ^^
^^ Seeing the rolling hills right by the sea was breathtaking ^^

^^ Our first full day was spent exploring Dartmouth ^^
^^ Dartmouth Castle ^^
^^ The pretty church at Dartmouth Castle ^^
^^ The castle-top views were pretty special ^^
^^ Walking the coast-path from the apartment to the lighthouse ^^
^^ Start Point Lighthouse ^^
^^ Overbecks, National Trust ^^
^^ This place has to be one of my most favourite National Trust house/gardens by far ^^

^^ How beautiful are the gardens here? ^^

^^ Rain coming in, but adding such beautiful contrast to the colours here ^^

^^ Hope Cove ^^

^^ Greenway, Agatha Christies holiday home - National Trust ^^

^^ The woodlands here were incredible ^^
^^ The hubby, wrapped up for an Antartic adventure as always! ^^

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