28 March 2018


It's been a long time since I did an end of month 'Taking Stock', monthly round up post, and I just fancied doing it this week, so here we go, let's launch right on into it!

m a k i n g :: lots of watercolour paintings for a new wedding stationery collection for Leaf Lane Studio! I am currently creating a collection that is fresh and green and, well, leafy! So far I am really liking how it's going, so stay tuned for that! I am also making lots of other bits and bobs for the general products section of the business, i.e. not wedding related, so I am really looking forward to sharing those things with you too!

c o o k i n g :: batches of healthy dinners! I am back on the counting macros thing and being very careful with what I am eating and the quantities of it.

d r i n k i n g :: loads and loads of water (and less tea...boo!).

r e a d i n g :: I haven't had an awful lot of time for reading recently, I mostly listen to podcasts, but I love catching up with blog posts, specifically the beautiful Peta's 'Wonderful Wednesday' posts!

w a n t i n g :: a little hair cut and fresh highlights for spring.

p l a y i n g :: Jenna Kutcher's podcast 'Goal Digger' - I love her and think she is super inspirational.

d e c i d i n g :: what products you guys might like me to create for my shop (notebooks/stickers/to-do lists etc...comment below!)

w i s h i n g :: I could feel less tired! I seem to be super lethargic right now and it is starting to get me down a bit :-(

e n j o y i n g :: watching the gorgeous birds bathing in a little tray that we have left out in the garden for them. I sat having breakfast this morning and watched as a robin enjoyed a wash in the sunshine, it was so sweet!

w a t c h i n g :: I was glued to a short series on Netflix recently called 'She Wolves'. It is a documentary about England's Queens and the struggles they faced being rulers as women, particularly way back in time. I absolutely love history and am always looking for documentaries to watch, so if you can recommend any feel free to let me know! 

l i k i n g :: my new Orson jeans from Topshop. Recently many of my clothes have been falling apart so I saved for a new slim-leg pair. I haven't got anything from Topshop for a long time, but these seemed perfect and they are also high waisted so they are a dream! I ordered them a little shorter in length so they sit about ankle length; perfect for spring and summer!

w o n d e r i n g :: how I can get a job napping for a living... as well as my actual business of course!

l o v i n g :: going to bed with a drop of my doTERRA lavender oil under my pillow, it is so relaxing and instantly helps to calm my mind as I drift off to sleep.

h o p i n g :: to try some of the Halo Top ice cream on my 're-feed' day! (Have you tried it? What is  it like?!)

m a r v e l l i n g :: over the speed my back has started to recover. I honestly feel so lucky to be able to be back at the gym already, albeit light and somewhat easy in intensity in comparison to what I would normally do, but it is good to be doing something.

n e e d i n g :: a really warm day, a chair in the sun and a good book!

s m e l l i n g :: my beautiful narcissus that I have in the house!

w e a r i n g :: a very strange combination of clothes recently! Due to the bad weather I have been so layered up that I really do look like a crazy person! 

f o l l o w i n g :: the Salisbury spy poisoning incident with great interest; before we moved to Cornwall we used to live right next to the city and the bench that the story is centered around is somewhere we would walk past regularly. It is so strange to see somewhere you know very well on the news. We live in mysterious times don't we.

n o t i c i n g :: so many beautiful tulips pushing their way up throughout the garden, some are flowering and some are just coming up, but they cheer me up to see them appearing.

k n o w i n g :: that I am on the right path. I have up and down days with my new career path (starting a business is amazing, but very, very hard) and I love it so much, but struggle a lot with momentum some times. I am learning to go with the flow though and realising that, on some weeks I will feel unmotivated and on others there will be no stopping me, and that is okay!

t h i n k i n g :: about peanut M&M's constantly... it's a real problem!

25 March 2018


Today marks the start of a big few months for me, which I will talk about on Wednesday I think, as it will take up way too much space here otherwise! This week, despite the rain fall here in Cornwall, has been a really positive one. I have been consistent with my little morning routine of ten minutes of uplifting meditation, using peppermint essential oil to help energise and uplift my mood (seriously guys, this is so awesome) and I have been journaling after my meditation too, just writing really positive little goals and dreams on paper. I am trying to work a bit with the law of attraction and manifest all the good stuff... I'll keep you posted on that :-)

:: This week I went back to very (very) light gym training in the form of cardio only, just to ease my back into it and to see what it felt like afterwards. I am so lucky that I have recovered so fast (obviously I am not fully back to normal yet, but I am well on my way for sure) and I feel so grateful that the pain has been minimal. It has really made me take stock of how amazing the body can be.

:: I have had a 'good art week' this week; meaning I actually managed to be patient with myself for once and allow myself proper time to create what I set out to create. I am super impatient with myself a lot of the time and label myself a big, fat failure if I can't do something I want to do on the first attempt. I have been working on a new wedding stationery collection, themed around leaves and foliage, that I want to be super fresh and clean looking and I am really happy with where things are going with it! I tried a few different things and really enjoyed the process of it all.

:: Speaking of art... I stumbled across the wonderful Katie Moody recently, a gorgeous illustrator / artist / all round lovely human (bean!) and spent way too much time this week admiring her from a suitable Instagram distance! Then, on... Wednesday (I think), I open up my Insta to a little message from her and I was the happiest ever! It gave me a little spring in my step to have a chat with someone I really admire online.

:: Yesterday morning, just before the rain hit, Joe and I managed to get a little walk in. It was possibly the muddiest walk I have ever experience and, I have to admit, I felt like a right wally when we got over taken by a cool surfer dude, who was easily navigating the mud in just his wet-suit, whilst I walked like I had wet myself across the slippery surface! In my defense, I was just being super careful not to slip and hurt my back even more!

:: You guys know that I get endless hours of entertainment from our little bear (Gizmo the cat... just in-case you may be new around these parts!) and this week I discovered her new little 'look-out' spot, up the weather-beaten old apple tree at the back of our garden that looks out to sea. She reminds me of a little sailor, up the crows nest of a ship, keeping watch for anything of interest! She is awful at climbing though and looks very un-lady-like on her way down!

:: Today we woke up to bright sunshine and it was beyond needed and oh so beautiful. After I had been to the gym we decided to make the most of the clear, sunny day and head to the coast path by Godrevy and have a walk. It was very clear and so pretty; the sea was super blue and the colours in the rocks seemed to jump right out in contrast; I love days like this. We have not long come back from a short walk to the beach by the cottage, which was mostly quiet, other than a few dogs playing in the sea and some surfers/paddle-boarders enjoying the lighter evening!

It's a bit of shorter one this week, as I have still been keeping myself to myself to help my back recover really, but I hope that the warmer weather approaching will mean more adventures very soon!

Thank you so much for reading this weekends post, I hope you have a lovely week ahead; in the meantime, here are a few more pictures from today to remind you that the sun is still out there!


21 March 2018


I'm the sort of person who, given half the chance, will ignore certain things in my life if I am tired, overwhelmed or just unsure on how to handle them. Sometimes things just get a bit much don't they and, during those times, it is super easy to bury your head in the sand and wait for the storm to pass (which it usually does, only to spring up ten times stronger somewhere else!).

I am learning so much having my own business to promote and often find myself really picking myself to pieces over the things I haven't done yet and, it was only when I heard someone on a podcast say 'we (small business owners) are just one person trying to do the job of several people rolled into one' that I realised that I needed to give myself a bit of time to get my head around this whole business thing. I am always going to be the type of person who thinks I should know how to do everything immediately and I should be able to do it all perfectly. I mean, how high do I want to set this bar of mine? The fall is sometimes so great that I take days to recover, rather than setting realistic expectations for myself from the start! As a result I end up feeling disconnected, not good enough and generally a bit of a failure.

As you will see, if you watch my latest vlog (linked at the bottom of this post!), I got so fed up with my mood last Friday, that I sat and wrote down everything that was whirling about in my head and just looked at it all individually. A lot of what I wrote down were things I hope to achieve; positive, inspirational goals and dreams that I want for my business or for myself, but they had turned into something I was struggling with because I have so many ideas in my head that I don't move forward on any of them. That causes frustration and puts out any fire of creativity I have, so I decided that I would just write all my ideas down and start working on them in a logical way... item one on the 'how to deal with difficult things' list! I always find list-keeping a way of keeping my head in order and that is why keeping a Bullet Journal works for me so well. I really like to see my tasks ticked off and feel a huge sense of accomplishment when I do everything on my list.

Another way I like to deal with difficult things is to start the day right. I am a huge believer that if you start your day by jumping right on into the worry and angst of work, or whatever it might be, that your brain just stays in that mode and it is very hard to bring back a more positive vibe. Most days I do some form of exercise in the morning; usually I get to the gym by 6.30-6.45am and get my training done and it feels so good (once I'm there and warmed up!). I feel so invigorated after a workout that I am ready for my to-do list and energised for the day ahead. 
A new thing that I have added to my morning routine thanks, once again, to Gemma Sands, is a little peppermint essential oil. I heard Gemma talk on her podcast, about how she pops a couple of drops of peppermint and wild orange oil onto her palms each morning and rubs them together, taking a few deep breaths to help invigorate and energise the body. Gemma sent me a little set of oils for my birthday and I have recently started using the peppermint for this exact thing each morning, followed by a ten minute meditation all about bringing abundance into your life. I don't know whether the oil is responsible, but I haven't had my 2 o'clock 'slump' hit me since using it... I will keep you posted on that!

Part of the reason why I am talking about how to deal with difficult things, as and when they come up, is all about self-development. This year I am consciously trying to heal some of the patterns that I have seen occur over and over again in my life and, to get over them, I think I need to face them head on. It is so hard and very draining to pick yourself apart but when you do it, and realise what you learn, it is so freeing. Podcasts really help me to dig a bit deeper into my psyche; some favourites are Gemma's 'Free to Flourish Radio', Julia Treat's 'Stepping into the Light' (a more spiritual one), and Lori Harder's 'Earn Your Happy' podcast, but there are so many good ones out there. I want to be captivated when I listen to a show and feel so much better about myself and learn ways to not 'sweat the small stuff'. 

What do you guys to when you are faced with something that really tests you in life? I am totally up for any tips and tricks you may want to share in the comments!


18 March 2018


Happy Sunday everyone! As I sit, finishing off this weeks Gratitude List, it has just started snowing! I think it looks so pretty, but I am really ready for the warmer weather that spring brings now! It has felt like a very wet winter period and I am more than grateful for that, as we need water too, but the selfish side of me, who needs sunlight to function, is ready now! Has it been snowing where you are? 

The wonderful news for me this week is that my back is feeling so much better! It has had a couple of 'blips' but overall is doing good, hooray to that! I will be back at the gym tomorrow for some gentle exercise, which is awesome because I hate missing training!

Let's jump into this weeks happenings and gratitude!

:: On Friday I found myself in a bit of a 'funky' mood. Unfortunately, it wasn't the kind of cool-funky you are probably envisioning, but a more I-have-so-many-things-in-my-brain-I-don't-know-where-to-start kind of funky! My head was swimming with both positive, inspirational thoughts and some little, annoying, negative ones which were causing me to feel somewhat stuck. I decided that the best course of action was to get a blank sheet of paper and write it all out, in no particular way really, simply list all the mind-crap on a piece of paper. Once I did that I cast it to one side and popped on some podcasts including Gemma Sands 'Free to Flourish Radio', episode 46 'Be Responsible for Your Energy' and Julia Treat's 'Stepping into the Light', an episode called 'The Importance of Allowing the True You to Shine Through'. Isn't it funny how sometimes things come along that totally resonate at that specific moment, about that specific thing you are experiencing? I am super grateful for these two ladies and their podcasts, they are my absolute favourites by a long way and I highly recommend them. As an additional note, yesterday I listened to Gemma's latest episode, 'Five Steps to Gaining Momentum in Your Life', which I would also recommend, as it is super motivational! 

:: This week I got to have an actual telephone conversation with my 'Lobster', otherwise known as my bestie, Helena! Her and her hubby, having recently relocated to Lynmouth, to run a bed and breakfast, have just reopened for the season, and have spent their time off totally redecorating and jazzing up their gorgeous B & B! If you fancy a weekend break in Devon please check out Lynmouth and their bed and breakfast, East Lyn House, as it is truly gorgeous! Our busy lives mean that we touch base over WhatsApp but don't get to see each other at all now really, so I am always grateful for a girly natter! 

:: I am so grateful to be living right by a beach. We have taken a few walks this week and they always remind me to step back from the bigger things that we take on board in life and remember that we truly are somewhere amazing. There is something new to see each time we walk the same path and the sea is forever changing and I absolutely love it.

:: On the subject of nature... on Thursday, around 4am, Gizmo wanted to go outside and, as I stood at the door, waiting for her to take her tail with her (she always sits for ages making up her mind, knowing that, if she leaves her tail over the threshold, I won't shut the door!) I noticed just how super-clear the sky was. I stepped out, bare foot (so cold!) and just stared up at the stars for a couple of minutes; I don't think I have ever seen so many, it was so beautiful. It made me think about clear, warm summer nights, when we sit out on our garden chairs and look up for ages without fear of catching pneumonia!

:: As a total stationery freak (who's with me... comment below!), I jumped for joy when these mini, pastel highlighters arrived this week! Aren't they so cute? Honestly, I wish I would just have a job testing stationery out forever more, it is my 'thing' and I can't get enough!

:: I have mentioned this lady before but I thought I would mention her again as she makes me feel grateful and happy every single time I see any of her Instagram Stories! Who is this magical unicorn lady? Her name is Emily Coxhead and I highly suggest you check her Instagram out, because everyone needs a bit of her happiness! (She also has a book out called 'Make Someone Happy and Find Your Own Happiness Along the Way: a Creative Kindness Journal', which I am desperate to get my paws on at some point!). I totally resonate with this beauty as, not only do I also sing and dance at my computer whilst I work (I just don't have the balls to put it on my IG for fear of terrifying everyone who dares to look) but I am of the same school of thought as her, which is all about positivity creating positivity! Go check her out, you'll adore her!

:: After buying the birds some 'bird peanut butter' but missing them actually eat it every single time, I finally witnessed a gorgeous robin pecking away at it yesterday. I knew that they had been enjoying it from the hundreds of little beak marks in it, but never once have I seen a bird doing it (I was beginning to wonder whether my own peanut butter obsession had driven me to sleep walking and stealing off our feathered friends!).

That is it for this week lovely guys and girls; thank you for being here! I have a new vlog that I am due to edit soon, so keep your eyes peeled to social media for that! Have a great rest of weekend and a lovely week ahead and I will see you on Wednesday for another post!


14 March 2018


If you have been following me for a while you may know that, in January 2016, I set up my very first Bullet Journal (see my previous video by clicking right here!). I thought I would give it a go because I was always finding that diaries weren't adaptable enough for me (and all my lists!), so it made sense to experiment with something that allowed me the flexibility that this way of journaling does.

Now it seems like everyone is having a go at it and I really love seeing what other people are up to, especially on Instagram! Although I think the original idea behind the Bullet Journal was to use it in a very simplistic way, so many more people are getting super creative with theirs and so, naturally, they are turning into a bit of an art journal too.

I had been doing the same set up since 2016 and recently found myself wanting a change and also wanting to be a little more creative within my pages, so I sat down and re-jigged the journal for next month and, if you are interested, you can see the whole thing in the video at the bottom of this post!

If you fancy giving it a try for yourself, here are some ideas for what you may need!

I use the original Bullet Journal but, quite honestly, it really doesn't matter. You could use a blank, dotted, squared or lined page if you want, it can be so easily adapted. The original Bullet Journal is a Leuchtturm (1917) and is handy purely because it has numbered pages, several ribbons to help you find your various spreads and many useful dotted pages. I would recommend that you look into something with thicker paper if you know you are likely to be using intense markers or paints though, as the Leuchtturm is just standard writing paper and some marker pens will show through to the next page.

I show what I used for my April spread in the image above. In my previous Bullet Journal I used several different pastel coloured pens for a mood tracker too, and will continue to do this. I also have a supply of paper that I have torn out of magazines, that I use to collage with. There are no restrictions though, just let your creativity run wild!

I love drawing and using a few different hand-lettering styles in my journal. It is not only great practice, but also so therapeutic! I always have a store of quotes I like on my Pinterest account, so just sketch out my pages roughly first then, armed with a cup of tea and something good on the TV, I will sit and draw over the various quotes in my fine-tipped black pens and make them look more interesting by adding borders etc. I do try and think about what I have going on in the month and pick out images or quotes to suit what I predict I will be feeling. April this year will be a full on health kick again, and I have big fat loss goals, so many of the quotes and things I have pre-written into the spreads for the month are with that in mind!

I hope you enjoyed seeing the pictures inside my journal. If you want to hear me talk about it in more detail please give the video below a watch too! If you haven't subscribed to my From Lucy with Love YouTube Channel yet, I would LOVE it if you could! Just click here and hit 'subscribe' when you get there!

PS: I am currently in the (early) stages of designing some printable journal goodies. When they are done they will be available (for a super affordable price of course) on both my Leaf Lane Studio shop and my Etsy shop too. I am thinking that each 'journal pack' will be between 4 and 8 pages to print, will be themed (botanical, stars, flowers etc) and will contain things like: hand-drawn/painted pieces, patterns for collage or layering, hand-lettered quotes, days of the week and months, gratitude prompts and much more! The good thing about printable packs like this is that you can print off as many as you like and use them for anything you like! I am super excited to get working on these!


11 March 2018


Well, this has been an interesting week...grab a cuppa!

*before I start this post, I have a new vlog out which is at the bottom of this post! It's not a very 'talky' vlog, but the next ones will be, so if you prefer my waffling over simply music you will not be disappointed next time I hope!

This week started off so promising, with a trip out to a National Trust property and the Eden Project too, then everything came to a grinding halt. Let's start with the good stuff from the beginning of the week shall we?

:: On Monday, as the weather was positively spring-like, Joe and I decided to take a walk in Trengwainton Garden, a National Trust property only ten minutes away in Penzance. I have been before but Joe hadn't so we thought it would be nice to get out and have a nice walk. This time of year there aren't many flowers about (a trip is planned for mid-April to see all the spring flowers though!) but the views at the top of the path are wonderful and, with some snow still on the ground in shady areas, it looked very pretty (see my vlog, linked at the bottom for more on Trengwainton!).

:: On the subject of Trengwainton... they have a really cute second hand book shop in a cottage on the site and I found a 1981 edition of a tiny illustrated book of berries. We didn't have the right change but the kind gentleman in the shop let us have it for what we had so thank you to him! I really love it and find those books so helpful for art work referencing.

:: There also was a brief stop at the tearoom for a scone :-)

^^ Trengwainton House - not open to the public but very grand to look at from outside nonetheless ^^

:: On Tuesday it was the turn of the Eden Project and it rarely disappoints; it is always beautiful there. The weather was gorgeous once again and we had a lovely wander about. It was one of the busiest times I have ever been there, which was slightly strange as it wasn't a school holiday or anything, but it is always so magical there and you can find peace once you step out of the domes. Some of the morning we spent at Eden will be in my very next vlog too!

:: I have had a couple of very luxurious afternoon naps this week (as I have been kind of 'on holiday' so it's fine!). I always get so dozy at two in the afternoon so took myself off for a rest and it was wonderfully relaxing; I just wish I could do it every single day! There is something so nice about climbing into bed, the window open a little for some fresh air, and just reading for an hour or sleeping; it feels wrong, but in all the right ways!

There are more things to be grateful for this week for certain, but before I get into them, let me talk you through what happened on Wednesday morning. As usual, I got up at 5.30am to head to the gym; Wednesday was leg day and I rattled through my squats, lunges, leg press and dead-lifts and, as I was returning some dumbbells to the rack I felt something in my back 'give'. I felt instantly sick and very, very faint. I just made it to the sofa in the entrance, saving myself from a fall to the hard floor. Long story short I left the gym on gas and air (one of the things I am super grateful for this week!). I felt like the biggest idiot ever having a poor old first response unit cart me off (luckily they are based literally a stones throw away from the gym). I am now the proud owner of a prolapsed a disc, which I have done before (lucky me!) but this time, now that I am a few days away from when I did it, it seems to be making a much hastier recovery and I have even managed a few walks and to not be pushing painkillers into my mouth like a mad woman.

Having filled you in on that little happening, let's continue...

:: I am super grateful for all the wonderful people at the gym who looked after me on Wednesday, even though I did end up looking like a pile of lost property when they covered me in every jumper available to help me stay warm! I am also grateful to the ambulance guys who would be super rich by now if they had been given a pound for every time I swore... but the gas and air calmed that down!

:: Poor Joe, car-less and stranded at home, received an SOS call from the gym instructor and came to pick up the car in a taxi, which charged £13 for a five minute journey (eek!) then came to the hospital to retrieve me...great day for him, but I am grateful he didn't leave me there!

:: With all that going on and the thought of not being able to train for a while you can probably imagine I was feeling a tad sorry for myself. When the postman arrived on Friday though I was cheered up by two wonderful parcels, one from the gorgeous Peta (pe-ta.com) of a little set of Teapigs teas (thanks so much lovely lady) and one from Joe of a new Bullet Journal (something to keep me busy...much like you do with a child and a colouring book!). Thanks guys, that really perked up my grump!

That pretty much sums up my week! I will do my best to vlog this week coming and straighten myself up from my slightly strange posture I adopt when I am in pain! Fingers crossed I will continue on my fast road to recovery though! Thank you for bearing with me this week! Have a great one guys!


4 March 2018


Happy March everyone! Well, what a week it has been! We have had two days of snow, which melted overnight, followed by a couple of days of quite spring-like weather; this morning was super warm and bright! As you will already know, if you read my previous post, Monday was my 37th birthday and my parents were here for a few days, narrowly missing the crazy weather, and so we had a bit of a cupcake fueled catch up and went out for a really yummy meal to a restaurant in Marazion. Joe is off work for a couple of weeks so there have been a few errands to run and places to go so, all in all it has been a crazy week... here's what has been happening!

:: My birthday, and the days that followed (including today), have been somewhat over-indulgent (more on what I am doing about that in a later post and vlog!). There has been some delicious food and some really lovely pressies too. Joe got me a gorgeous crescent moon necklace, mum and dad bought me some skincare bits and gave me some money too. I got a gorgeous set of essential oils from Gemma and I had so many flowers delivered (all beautiful daffodils and narcissus) that even the postman commented on all the deliveries! Thank you to everyone who sent me a card, pressie or message on Monday, all of them mean the world to me.

:: The couple of crazy snow days we had came out of nowhere but I really enjoyed seeing our village all covered in a white dusting. The birds got stocked up with fat balls, bird peanut butter (yep, that's a thing you know!) and seeds and they kept all cosy in our garden whilst the snow fell. We attempted a walk to see the beach but the road down was crazy amounts of slippery underfoot, so that mission was halted fast (mostly because I am so clumsy on a regular day, let alone a snow day!). Watching Gizmo look at the snow was so cute; to be fair to her, she went to bed at about 10am in the bright sunshine and when she got up at 4pm the garden was covered in snow. She looked confused but got out there and trotted about happily eventually!

:: This week we had no water for a day and a half (fun!), which fell perfectly on the day that I was finally allowed to have a bath again after having my tattoos! When the water came on yesterday I had the best bath ever! I really enjoy a soak in the bath with a podcast or YouTube for company!

:: Yesterday, in the rain, Joe and I took a drive to Godolphin House, a National Trust property about 15 minutes away from us. We have been there before but just fancied a walk and didn't really care about the rain. Having been there for about half an hour the rain stopped and we walked about the gardens; there was no-one else about whatsoever for the most part and all I could hear was the birds chirping. It is such a magical place and will be in the vlog I am currently editing, but to see a previous vlog of Godolphin House just click here!

:: This afternoon, whilst having a bit of a chill out on the sofa, I had a bit of a scroll on Netflix and finally watched a film I have wanted to see for a long time, The Danish Girl. Wow, what an incredible movie! Have you seen it? I really recommend it if you haven't watched it yet. It's so moving and proves that love crosses many boundaries... so beautifully made.

:: Through March, I am taking part in the hashtag 'March meet the maker' (#marchmeetthemaker) on Instagram. The challenge is thirty days of prompts to help creatives/makers let people know more about them and their business and was created by the lovely Joanne Hawker. I am really enjoying it so far and have had a chat with a couple of other creatives on the back of the posts I have put up already. If you want to follow along be sure to follow my Leaf Lane Studio Instagram!

I hope you guys have had a wonderful week, come and have a chat in the comments! See you on Wednesday! (New vlog coming soon!).


2 March 2018


A big round of applause to me for turning 37 and getting worse at putting up posts on time! In my defense we had visitors this week AND it was snowing! I wanted to do a post on my actual birthday, which was Monday 26th, but here I am, on a Friday, frantically posting it! 

Last year I went for a list of things I had learnt when I reached my birthday, '36 Things At 36', click here to read it (sorry the image is missing!) and so this year I am doing something kind of similar but broken down into categories. I know that this sort of post may not interest everyone, but it is lovely for me to be able to look back on something so I hope you don't mind!

:: T H I N G S  I  H A V E  L E A R N T ::
I can safely say that I have learnt, over the last year, that I am much stronger than I realised and a lot more capable of surviving horrible circumstances than I ever thought. In the last twelve months I have been able to summon up large amounts of bravery, where previously I would have buried my head in the sand and just kept things to myself. I have pushed myself to do things that I would have avoided at all costs and the result of that is I can now lead a much more free life, with less anxiety and stress. It does come up every now and again of course, and can sometimes be pretty extreme, but it isn't every single day anymore. Starting a new life in Cornwall certainly played a big part in that process and has helped heal a lot of things in me.

I have also accepted that, at night (in the dark), problems seem too large to deal with and that with the morning light and a new day, things will sort themselves out and calm will be restored again. When I have been super anxious in the evenings I have taken to... wait for it... doing a puzzle! Yep, puzzles are great for mindfulness and for passing time and I am now a proud puzzler!

:: T H I N G S  T H A T  H A V E  C H A N G E D ::
The last twelve months have passed by quicker than any others I have experienced and so many things have changed since my last birthday. I have launched my business, Leaf Lane Studio, and opened my Etsy shop too (still a work in progress!); these things were huge for me to accomplish and, whilst it is still early days for the business, I am so happy that I managed to get moving on them. Thanks to the process of starting Leaf Lane Studio and everything that I needed to do in order to launch it, I have managed to squash some other worries that I have carried about for many years including the worry around my skills not being good enough to launch a business. This specific thing was helped by talking to so many different people, some who have successful businesses already, and realising that they also feel that way. For some reason I thought that all of the things I didn't know how to do for my business (e.g. working alongside a printer) meant that I couldn't step into my dream of doing it. I realised very fast that these things were total bulls**t and excuses I was putting in my own path. As soon as I understood that it was almost impossible for a business owner to know everything then a weight lifted off my shoulders.

Moving to Cornwall and getting a little part time job with the printers has also changed my anxiety levels. As I have mentioned before, I would normally feel so worked up at the thought of having to drive around tiny roads, filled with cars, to try and find some free parking whilst I go and work, but now I actually quite enjoy the challenge and the walk into town with my little rucksack on my back and a business podcast in my ears! I am feeling less and less weighed down by the things that bugged me previously and feel much less frightened of life.

:: R E A L I S A T I O N S ::
All of the things I said above, about anxiety and stress are very true, however I have come to the realisation that my mental health issues will always be a part of who I am and I truly embrace them now. I have zero shame or worry surrounding people knowing how I feel and how people with mental health problems can suffer and I will fight to the bitter end to talk about things that are hard to open up about.

Another thing I really don't give a damn about being open about these days is my spiritual side. Am I absolutely full on immersed in it? No. But I like having my oracle cards and crystals around for comfort and friendly guidance; they by no means define my life or make me change my path, purely give me a little ritual of calm and mindfulness each and every day and I love that.

One of the biggest things I have come to realise in the last twelve months is that how people show they love you can sometimes knock you off your feet when you least expect it.

:: O T H E R  R A N D O M S ::
:: I have two new tattoos now, after years of saying 'I hate tattoos and will never ever get one' I now have a total of three. Nice one Lucy!
:: It is totally impossible not to eat an entire packet of peanut M & M's.
:: I will never have style! Evidence is in what I am currently wearing... thermal leggings covered with fleecy, navy blue, polka-dot pajama bottoms with huge fluffy socks over the top with a thermal long-sleeved top, a long-sleeved stripey top over that, another top of the same type with different colours over that one and a very old jumper over all of those. Watch out Vogue, here I come!
:: At 37 I am still utterly incapable of hanging up the clothes I take off at the end of the day (please say I am not alone!). We have a basket for clothes that are just washed and dried but need ironing on the floor in the bedroom and I tend to throw clothes I take off in there...several days worth are currently on top of clean clothes. I am a dream aren't I?!
:: I can fall asleep almost instantly at 2pm any day. I lose the ability to function from about 1.30pm until 4pm ish. Why?!

I hope you enjoyed this little life inventory and be sure to let me know in the comments if you can relate to anything! Save me from myself!
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